Mata rani ki jai

Khol darwaza (open the door)

A strange thing happened today.. I had a strange feeling through out the day .. some sort of deep fear couldn't figure out what it was ...

finally i found time to open the doors or may be the doors were openned to me ...
after i went through little discomfort in my so very busy busy day... it was like a magnetic pull ... I had to get asign.. an assurance that all is fine .. and i went to amma's site .. The random pic on the amritapuri.org was displaying amma hugging someone and showing a thumbs up sign !!!

All is fine my child thats what my mother was telling me .. assuring me ...

I read it few days back that God is always standing outside our door .. waiting for us to call out for him ...and here i am ... this soul who forgets to call out.... but somewhere due to some karmas i donno what.. My mother calls me and even opens the doors for me too

how wonderful and as if this was not enough.. one of my friends at amma's calls me and narrates amma's stories and everytime something kept happenning and we kept calling and talk abt our mother and i listen to this wonderful bhajan called " Khol Dawaza"

I absolutely love it and i am looking forward to hear the same from the goddess itself.



All this just makes me humble, leaves me with a heart filled with love and eyes filled with tears of gratitude and a deep desire to merge into divine.... increases my longing and my calling for my dearest amma

May we all get to open our doors to the ultimate or may the doors be openned to us :)

Tumko hum dil me basa lenge on a lovely spring afternoon

Nature is just setting the mood ..The sky is cloudy ..might start raining anytime ...
a lovely spring afternoon...what an atmosphere specially for this ghazal.
perfect weather .. perfect timing..

Tumko hum dil me basa lenge

Tumko hum dil me basa lenge, tum aao to sahi
Saari duniya se chupa lenge tum aao to sahi

Ek waada karo ab humse na bicchadooge kabhi
Naaz hum saare utha lenge tum aao to sahi

Bewafa bhi ho sitamgar bhi jafa pesha bhi
Hum khuda tumko bana lenge tum aao to sahi

Raah taarikh hai aur door hai manzil lekin
Dard ki shamme jala lenge tum aao to sahi

struggle to survive .. Hope Floats

Last few days have been phenomenal on its own way..

How events change the course of our lives is an amazing thing ..
we watch things happen or sometimes we take decisions or make choices which seem the best at that time but years later the same thing turn out to be a disaster.

I have been reading and listening abt layoffs and people not getting jobs and how they are affected but i closely saw something happening to somebody whom i know for last four years....their life was good back home ...what makes people uproot themselves and their kids from a stable life ... is it the greed or is it the ambition to make big ? or is it just a search of better life and where does it all stop ?


The hope to be together .. the hope to just pull on with the situation .. the hope to fight the financial crisis .. the hope to make a living in a country that is not yours ...the hope to give a better living for the kids .. make people do things ...

God knows whats enstored for them .. or for all of us ...

But Life is most of the times the struggle to survive
with the hope that tomorrow will be a better day.

Seven Steps to Success in Graduate School

Though its coming too late... but its better late than never !!!

Seven Steps to Success in Graduate School (and Beyond)

Adapted from N. J. Halas

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The following is a list of essential skills that all successful researchers have developed. Without these skills, you cannot expect to succeed in research. If you fully develop your abilities in each of these areas, you will lay a strong foundation for the rest of your research career that will lead directly to success in research. The responsibility for the development of these skills is entirely your own.

Your research advisor can provide guidance and assistance, but your graduate education is your personal responsibility.

This list is meant to serve as a personal barometer for you to analyze your strong and weak areas.

• WORK
  Develop a sense of urgency and the habit of working hard at solving problems.
  

• THINK
  Understand, explain, and interpret your results. Continually ask how far you can push and extend your idea. Be contrarian: do not blindly accept claims and conclusions, but rather question whether they are really true and whether they can be extended or applied in new contexts.

• READ
  Investigate your area. Learn its history and context, understand its technical foundation and background. Learn to read technical papers with a critical eye, and with the expectation of being able to duplicate and extend what is described in the article. Follow your field by reading current journals. Know who did what in your field as well as related areas.

  Learn about other areas. Broaden yourself by reading articles in journals and magazines. Become familiar with other theoretical fields and application areas.

• WRITE
  Write concise and focussed technical papers. Write a larger and more comprehensive document (thesis). Learn how to write proposals. Learn word processing and text formatting appropriate for scientific documents.

• SPEAK
  Discuss your ongoing research with peers, colleagues, and visitors in an informal setting and at conferences. Learn how to make a well-organized, coherent, and engaging presentation of your research results in front of an audience. Understand the differences in speaking to a general audience versus a technical audience. Cultivate professional contacts and associations.

• MANAGE
  Time: Develop a sense of how long any specific task will take you to execute.
  People: Develop succesful working relationships with the people you work with.
  Research: Develop a research program, not just a number of disconnected projects.

• C0NTEMPLATE
  Anticipate where research is going in your area, both your own and of your colleagues'. Become a generator of research ideas. Learn to be able to judge when an idea is feasible and when a research direction is important or impacting. Keep track of ideas, perhaps in a research diary. Search for connections between ideas.

haan waali baat

Kitna lagav ho gaya hai humain
aapse apki awaaz yun sunte sunte

gaar baat na kar paaye aap
aur baas apse haan waali baat hogi


haan hi sun lenge janab aapki ...
woh bhi sukun deti hai :)

iss ruh ko ...

gaar woh bhi sun ne ko nahin mili ...
to phir aaj bina awaaz sune...

jeene ki ek nayi koshish hogi ...

कितना लगाव हो गया है हमें
आपसे आपकी आवाज़ यूँ सुनते सुनते

ग़र बात न कर पाये आप
ओर ब़स होगी आपसे हाँ वाली बात


हाँ ही सुन लेंगे जनाब आपकी ...
वोह भी सुकून देती है :)

इस रूह को ...

ग़र वोह भी सुन ने को नहीं मिली ...
तो फिर आज बिना आवाज़ सुने...

जीने की एक नयी कोशिश होगी ...

happy living

On this journey called "LIFE'
some of us get so engrossed in things that we forget to "LIVE".

We are aware but we pretend to be unaware, we are awake but we pretend to be asleep....
and in that state how can one live ????
when someone alive pretends to be Dead.

some go on like this till the end, and some realize it at some point or are made to realize, which ever may be the way, That realization is must in order to live !!!!


"Good Life starts only when you stop wanting a better One"


"Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away"

Happy Living..!!!!!!!!!

Nice ...

Read this somewhere and liked it and liked it so much that Here it comes to my blog

Life is short......
Break the rules.......
Forgive quickly...........
Kiss slowly.........................
Love truly...................................
Laugh to heart's fill.........................
And never regret anything that made you smile.......

summer day memory

The ER visit

Emergency striked as as soon as in the morning, as soon as she realized that the shoulder can't be moved, the arm is in terrible pain .. it cant be lifted up

calls to health centers were made .. no appointments
then came the docs offices .. no appointments till two weeks
it takes two freaking weeks to see a doc inspite of having health insurance

what is this system ???

brought her down to tears ...
thanks to a wonderful friend who helped when it was needed the most ..

ER : emergency room is the option !
was it really a emergency ... not to the outer world but it was for the one in pain !

called up someone special and home ..shed few tears .. missed home like anything ..

It was so easy to see a doc ! who wants to live here all life ???

well few min later regretted it .. coz what can people do from so far ...

when one takes decisions to leave home they got to be responsible for themselves ..

called up again to make everything sound fine now .. don't how much that would have helped

anyways .. went to the room .. they take 4 - 5 X rays prescibe few medicines ..and send the patient home and all this takes almost 5 hrs of the day ...

dont know where its all leading ... but the trip to ER will be memorable went through the most scary roads of the st louis .. picked up the wrong hospital i guess ...

now will be one tough job to get hold of a good physician .. seems like there are no appointments till march 09 with few ...

what can a person do in such situation ..

I guess just be thankful that it wasn't so serious .. thankful that luckily have friends who stand by you and have loved ones who are with u if not physically in mind for sure ..

above all the grace of god which brings you through such situations ...