Do i disturb you a lot

Do i disturb you a lot ?
you dont have to answer this question
as i know i do ....

I was not supposed to ask you the obvious
but still my uncontrolled fingers typed it out

and now i dont know what else to write to make it look less silly
why do i always end up embarassing myself like this ?

sometimes i feel, i am not talking to u
but i am talking to someone whom i know

and i say things ..which can be said
then soon i realise, its not someone whom i know but you !
you who are a stranger to me

Even you refer to this as " were you having conversation with yourself "
and may be you know and understand

So in your own sweet gentle way,
you say ," its fine as long as i can't hear you"
then you give a smile :) and go away !

Scribbled on 9 july 2007
sometimes situations make you write ..
sometimes situations make you falter a little...
sometimes you are lucky to accidently stumble into good people
who sometimes knowingly unknowingly make you smile, give u company..when at times you need it the most..
sometimes you fall straight on your face and realise they were just strangers they were not friends or loved ones who would care...
How would i have known this .. if you had not stepped out ..
leaving me in this emptiness ...and filling yourself to the brim ..