summer day memory

The ER visit

Emergency striked as as soon as in the morning, as soon as she realized that the shoulder can't be moved, the arm is in terrible pain .. it cant be lifted up

calls to health centers were made .. no appointments
then came the docs offices .. no appointments till two weeks
it takes two freaking weeks to see a doc inspite of having health insurance

what is this system ???

brought her down to tears ...
thanks to a wonderful friend who helped when it was needed the most ..

ER : emergency room is the option !
was it really a emergency ... not to the outer world but it was for the one in pain !

called up someone special and home ..shed few tears .. missed home like anything ..

It was so easy to see a doc ! who wants to live here all life ???

well few min later regretted it .. coz what can people do from so far ...

when one takes decisions to leave home they got to be responsible for themselves ..

called up again to make everything sound fine now .. don't how much that would have helped

anyways .. went to the room .. they take 4 - 5 X rays prescibe few medicines ..and send the patient home and all this takes almost 5 hrs of the day ...

dont know where its all leading ... but the trip to ER will be memorable went through the most scary roads of the st louis .. picked up the wrong hospital i guess ...

now will be one tough job to get hold of a good physician .. seems like there are no appointments till march 09 with few ...

what can a person do in such situation ..

I guess just be thankful that it wasn't so serious .. thankful that luckily have friends who stand by you and have loved ones who are with u if not physically in mind for sure ..

above all the grace of god which brings you through such situations ...

monday to monday

Roller coaster week, saw it all ...

from meetings to weddings to funeral

what is life all about !

life and death
celebrations and sorrows
happiness and sadness

we dont know what gonna happen the very next moment, then why do we feel so much in control, when actually we don't have control and we cannot control ....

Things happen ..............not always as we wish them to ............

what is this all about .. what are we running after and for what..

movie marathon weekend

saw three movies this weekend
starting with a movie which i wanted to see for long, but for some reason always missed it. Until a friend mentioned it and i watched it, got engrossed so much that finished it before i slept on friday night .. Ijjazat !!! a 1982, Nasserudin shah, Rekha and Anupama patel starrer.. a classic piece of work by Gulzaar sa'ab ..Loved the songs .. I have liked them for long ..hummed them .. sung them ...

Next was a spanish movie .. I don't understand the language, but i love the way it sounds and the movie is "Butterfly" what a piece of work, unique subject, wonderful direction and flawless acting.

The sunday was wrapped up by, The last lear .. a very theater like movie , It was a story of an actor a theatre actor ..about his passion for work ... some strong actors .. with amazing performance ....was captivating !!!

and there were more on TV.. which were watched here n there ...

Start where you stand

Start where you stand and never mind the past,
The past won’t help you in beginning new,
If you have left it all behind at last
Why, that’s enough, you’re done with it, you’re through;
This is another chapter in the book,
This is another race that you have planned,
Don’t give the vanished days a backward look,
Start where you stand.

The world won’t care about your old defeats
If you can start anew and win success,
The future is your time, and time is fleet
And there is much of work and strain and stress;
Forget the buried woes and dead despairs,
Here is a brand new trial right at hand,
The future is for him who does and dares,
Start where you stand.

Old failures will not halt, old triumphs aid,
To-day’s the thing, to-morrow soon will be;
Get in the fight and face it unafraid,
And leave the past to ancient history;
What has been, has been; yesterday is dead
And by it you are neither blessed nor banned,
Take courage, man, be brave and drive ahead,
Start where you stand.

By Berton Braley

Someone special said something that striked my heart and while thinking about it, i got a printout which was on my desk for many days may be a year and when i read it , i see this beautiful poem. Today it has a different meaning !

चाँद फिर निकला ( chaand phir nikala)

चाँद फीर निक्ला
और आज पूरा सफ़ेद चेहरा लीये हुये
चांदनी के साथ

Chand phir nikala
aur aaj poora safaid chehra liye huey
chandani ki saath

चलो फीर, उस चाँद की रौशनी तले
देखें हम आकाश को,
हाँ उसी पेड़ की शाखाओं के बीच से
देखें हम उन तारों को,

उस बैंच पर बैठे
एक दूसरे का हाथ थामे
ब़स रहे बैठे हम
रात भर, एक दूसरे के साथ

Scribbled by wandering soul in the mind ..
while enjoying the company of his soul
At the lakeside on a beautiful full moonlit night !!!

Live in the present

LIVE IN THE PRESENT :

A honeybee spends all his time, energy, and life working to store honey.
But for what reason? In the end, all that precious honey gets taken away and eaten by others!

Similarly, it is a waste if we spend all our lives planning and hoarding for the future.

Not even a second of the future is in our hands.

Therefore, live in the present. We are the present.

Leave the future in God's hands. He will look after everything.

What we are meant to undergo, we will undergo.

What we are to receive, we shall receive.

Be satisfied and happy with what you have at present.

Try, my children wholeheartedly. - amma

I read this in amma quotes two days back .. found it so perfect for me, as if it was written for me ..
I also realize that, Its not easy to always do that, human mind always plays tricks with him .. but its upto us to control that mind which wanders from past to future ... but we got to make it stick to present .. and thats why amma in the end writes try my children ...and try wholeheartedly ...

Zindagi kya hai -- koi baat chale

ज़िंदगी क्या है जानने के लिये
ज़िंदा रहना बहुत जरुरी है
आज तक कोई भी रहा तो नही

सारी वादी उदास बैठी है
मौसमे गुल ने खुदकशी कर ली
किसने बरुद बोया बागो मे

आओ हम सब पहन ले आइने
सारे देखेंगे अपना ही चेहरा
सारे हसीन लगेंगे यहाँ

है नही जो दिखाई देता है
आइने पर छपा हुआ चेहरा
तर्जुमा आइने का ठीक नही

हम को गलिब ने येह दुआ दी थी
तुम सलामत रहो हज़ार बरस
ये बरस तो फकत दिनो मे गया

लब तेरे मीर ने भी देखे है
पखुड़ी एक गुलाब की सी है
बात सुनते तो गलिब रो जाते

ऐसे बिखरे है रात दिन जैसे
मोतियो वाला हार टूट गया
तुमने मुझको पिरो के रखा था

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Maikade

I had recorded few songs at one point of time and they were recored with a really low quality mike and on windows recorder.
Thanks to someone special who made me convert them from wav to mp3 format and then introduced to esnips.I just uploaded this song called maikade from Hariharan's collection ..
just a trial to see if it shows up in my blog !l

so when i click on the link .. it doesnt take me to the proper link .. i tried :( but couldn't

so i uploaded the link .. so the blue rectangular thing that u see right below the title ..
If u click that .. u get to the right place and listen to the song ..

well i will figure it out .. and that will be my next post !!!

http://www.esnips.com/doc/21456e64-d5d4-4366-a7c4-97b54dfa024e/maikade

OK ... IT has Failed ... so there is no song here !!!

time flies ....4 years !!!

Happens to be aug 1st ..

I left home 4 years back on the same day ...

4 years wow !!!

Time flies, ....

i saw this butterfly sitting on this pretty flower,
outside my school ...
all ready to fly ..

It looked so beautiful, that i wanted to capture it in some frame...
It could not do justice to the moment ..
but it did gimme something to remind me of this beautiful gift of nature...
i was asking this butterfly to pose for me before it flies and it did ..