why do i fear ?

I experienced something today as i did last week and i had felt the same few months and almost a year back. I had almost forgotten that i had experienced something like this before and how scared was i ? asked the writer to herself...

She had got so busy in her life and work that she didn't even remember that this person exists, till she saw him last week near the water fountain and he just walked towards her from nowhere, when he walks he looks straight and he has no expression on his face only his eyes turn to the side .This look makes her paranoid, her body gets chilled and its very very very scarry ..

She had left that floor last Wednesday as her is in one corner of the hallway and there was no one in the lab that day. She went to the floor where there were people whom she knew and it was awkward for her to just go and talk to people randomly and start talking for no reason in the end she told the reason why she was with them, she spent some half an hour just to make sure that this man had left the floor and as expected by the time she returned he was not there and she wasn't scared anymore..

Today again he entered her lab from no where, she was not alone this time, she had two of her friends talking to her and two other people and still the way this man looked at her, did the same thing, she was scared again ! She even asked her friend not to leave till this man leaves.

This man is fifty plus , is a janitor, doesn't talk to anyone may be doesn't speak English thats what everyone thinks but almost a year back he talked to her and she said hi to him as a casual thing and smiled as she does to any other person but the fear started when he told her that she looks beautiful in the picture that hangs in the corridor amongst all the people and of all the people he knew her name and told her the same, she was shocked but couldn't have done much about it, after that day he freaks her out..

but ...

What do i fear ? why does he seem creepy to me ? why do i feel this way ???

The Rose

Some say love, it is a river, that drowns the tender reed
Some say love, it is a razor, that leads your soul to bleed
Some say love, it is a hunger, and endless aching need
I say love it is a flower and you it's only seed

It's the heart afraid of breaking that never learns to dance
It's the dream afraid of waking that never takes a chance
It's the one, who won't be taken who can not seem to give
And the soul afraid of dying that never learns to live

When the night has been to lonely and the road has been to long
And you think that love is only for the lucky and the strong
Just remember in the winter far beneath the bitter snow
Lies the seed that with the sun's love in the spring becomes the rose.

Barbara Streisand